Things I Hope

Thursday, July 26, 2012:

Well, I'm down to 11 pills.  That's probably somewhere between 3-4 days - which gives me probably until sometime Sunday.  As it is, I should make it thru Saturday 7/28, which would put me at 23 days/3.73 per day.  One of my better months on the medicine (with the exception of when I had shitloads of hydros).    It's a shame, because it's still a week short (about 6 days or so if you don't include the 4 I always give to Shelly), and when you're off, you're off.  Not much difference between 7 days and 10 days.  Given the way things have gone pretty much from the get go this medicine period, I'm kind of surprised I made it this far.  I just can't freaking believe the early days when I ALWAYS ended up "out" after 2 days (6 per day).  And my tolerance is worse now?

At any rate, I'm determined to do something.  What, I don't know.  It was very disturbing to find out today that Shelly is in fact not winning the Genares contest, so that's 750.00 down the drain.  I don't know how I "misheard".  Then the Netbook - I don't know what the fuck is up with it.  Another 175.00 down the drain.  Not to mention anything else worth selling - ain't sellin'.