Beside Myself

It's really going to happen this time.  Because there is nothing left to believe in.  There is nothing left to wait for.  There is no longer a reason to hope for change.  I finally see the light.  I guess I was fortunate enough through a combination of events...to find out.  I have thought about that a number of times.  If it was up to her, I never would have found out she was screwing other guys.  Again.  If it wasn't for that dude...never would have known that she was spending so much time sexting...just like I thought.  And I would have sat here for months wondering what the fuck was going on.  Just like before.