I really don't know. The past few weeks...have sucked. I have been in a complete fog. I'm not even completely sure that it's limited to the last couple of weeks...but's that's about when I generally started noticing things. Gary and I had gone to look for cars. My intent was to research them better, even the Scion after I got home. But it seemed to be the beginning of a flame-out from the medicine. I'd been averaging about 4 per day. Not a lot of sleep. Then I got some sleep. There always seems to be some kind of fallout from that. It hasn't been the same since. None of the things that I felt good about before...I just don't feel the same. I feel no fucking drive whatsoever. I'm sitting around in a goddamn fog. Every single goddamn fucking day. I do absolutely fucking nothing. Knowing that this is a a critical time to get shit done and I just can't get a goddamn fucking thing done. It's scary, amongst other things. I mean. Scary. Frustrating. You name it.
I'm in a situation that I don't know what to do. I need a job. FUCK FUCK FUCK.
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