Sunday, August 26, 2012

Some Thoughts

Perhaps it's not the biggest disappointment in the world, but it sure feels like a big one.  The book is now closed on the infamous Cavenders gift card.  The card, in its final valuation of 217.00, sold for a mere 130.00.  I call it a disappointment.  It certainly was, considering I had hoped to sell it (in 500.00 form) for 400-425.00.

I am so kidding myself.  I sure as hell wish that Shelly could do without her 150-200.00 "Shellymoney" right now.  I know she deserves a lot, and this is all my fault for many reasons, but I face a quandry every time she wants something:  Either she gets it and is happy, or she doesn't in which case my life at the moment (and for awhile after) is a living hell - both from an "Angry and Vindictive Shelly" and the feeling that my life (and I) are completely worthless and I might as well find a cliff to jump off right then and there.  So, I have learned to let her do it - but at a cost.  If we don't have something to replace the funds with, we're fucked.  And when we have extra things (like HOA dues and/or overdraft fees), we're even more fucked.  Like right now.

I have got to do something, and fast.  I am still sick to my freaking stomach about the chances we've had.  I just looked it up again, and we had over 1500.00 worth of extra income last month, and we were still way in the hole.  It's even worse than that, actually.  I think it was 7/29 and 7/30 that I sold the Wii and Xbox - that's another 225.00 that's really not documented anywhere as far as income.

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