Well, Sunday marks the last day of Toddles' Summer Vacation 2012. I'm sure I guess he enjoyed it for Summer's sake, if nothing else. It certainly fell short on what I would have liked to have done with/for him. I regret being so far in over our heads on stuff that I did not make any attempts to do anything. I know my excuse is the "situation", and to a large extent that's true. But how many times has the "situation" been better and I still didn't? It's still disappointing, one way or another.
Time is growing short in which I will be able to even try to do anything to either handle our situation or do the "best I can" at doing something...
I realistically have 5 days at most left on the medicine. Possibly 4 if I hold to form. I still want/need to at least make an attempt (good attempt) at getting a sweeps ebook out. Other, smaller things notwithstanding, this is perhaps my one good shot at trying to redeem myself for not doing anything else. I'm not trying to say it will be a bestseller or make hundreds of thousands of dollars, but I would at least like to put out a quality project that I can call my own and see what happens.
Perhaps I'm just getting old and/or my memory is getting bad (unfortunately, it seems like both are true) but it seems like this was one of the worst times/situations I have been in over an extended amount of time where there were a few things that I really wanted to do or try to do to "make things better" (call about the tv/work on the elliptical/write ebook/get sweeps going/etc and yet, due to our chronic shitty financial situation, I spent the whole damn time just absolutely being freaking sick to my stomach.
I hope that can change, at least over the next few days, so I can try to do something to restore my dignity and improve our financial situation.
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