Where To Go From Here?

I'm not quite sure what to make of my thinking process lately.  This perhaps goes back some time, but right now I'm just concerned with lately.

I remember thinking a few weeks ago how nice it would be if I could successfully get mitsubishi to send me out a replacement DLP chip for free and let me install it, leaving me with zero cost and the ability to sell it (if necessary) for 3-4 hundred dollars.  Somehow, I was thinking this would be "extra" money.  As I've figured out of the past couple of days, nothing is "extra".  We're so far behind that even with the inclusion of the DS (75) and TV (if I get the chip for free) for 300 or so, we'd have to sell everything that's currently listed for sale and then and only then would we be caught up.  How it deteriorated so quickly, I'm not sure - and that's one of the problems.

However, I do have a couple of theories, at least in this one particular case.  I think it will apply (at least some of it) in other cases as well.  At various times over the past few weeks, I've gone from thinking we'd get 425 or so from the Cavenders card down to the present current offer  of 135.00.  That's -300.00 off any totals.  And our food bill continues to be a sore spot, especially when we are flat ass broke and not able to buy a lot of things at once (not to mention meal planning, etc).   Also, most of the time I never take into consideration Shelly's little purchases and whatnot.  That shit adds up.  Garage sales, bearly used store, etc.  Sometimes up to 50.00/week. 

I'm not sure where we go from here.  It's about to get nasty if we can't come up with $$.  I've got to come up with something.  It's hard when you have to deal with being so far behind you don't know when/if you'll ever see the light of day, much less knowing it will be a challenge even if you're starting off "even" every month.