I Feel Lost

...and confused, hurt.  I can't seem to get a grip on what's going on with Shelly these days.  It really makes me appreciate the way most of the last couple of months had gone.  Little emoticons (stupid, I know) blowing her a kiss - ignored.  A video greeting card?  All BUT ignored, until I mentioned something about it to her.  A little mishmash of "Thinking of you"?  Not one fucking word.  And now 50 bucks worth of flowers I couldn't afford?  Silencio.  So.  I don't know what the fuck is going on.  I'm about ready to do...something.  Turn off my phone all night.  Change numbers.