Well, My Guess Is...

That it's not a good sign at all.  3 hours + after delivery and not a single word.  Who knows, though?  My guess is she was probably both surprised and confused.  It could mean nothing, it could mean something.  And anything in between.  She could be working.  She could be anything.  She could have completely given up on me "us" after last week and no word from me since Friday 2/7/14.  It could mean something to her and/or she's trying to figure out a response.  She could have gotten off early and went to workout and then she's working.  She could have a date.  She could have been seeing someone this whole time and been lying to me, and took the events of the last 4 days as proof that she was done with me.  It could be none of the above, some of the above, or all of the above.  I don't know.

My point has always been I thought that the whole damn thing was unfair and unnecessary.  With the possible exception of getting me down here and getting my head screwed on finally.  But the utter frustration at me held solely responsible for "losing everything" and thus being exiled down here, cut out of their life almost totally, hardly every seeing each and little hope given for even that, much less at a reconciliation - well, that was starting to wear on me.  And after what she said to me about "not being ready" for sex with me and that she would hop back in the sack with someone like Cali.  I would sincerely doubt she hadn't fucked anyone else in 2 months plus.  The whole thing could be a lie.  Bottom line is, it probably isn't anything good at the very least.  Something like "Thanks, hope this means we can be friends for now" or that she's not going to ever say anything to me or to tell me that she's involved with someone else.  Whatever.  I guess I never, ever had a chance.  And that's why she wouldn't give me one.  Even though she was just as wrong for what she did and the way she went about it, up to and including the loss of our house, which will go down as the defining moment in the final destruction of our marriage, I suppose.  Life goes on.  I will get through this.