It Really Doesn't Matter Anyway

This was going to be a monumental challenge anyway.  The only thing that made it worthwhile for me to even consider undertaking was the way you were treating me over the summer.  It was refreshing.  It was nice to feel wanted and needed by you again.  Sexually and otherwise.  Then BOOM!  It disappeared.  And for about 6 weeks you gave me every excuse in the book to try to explain it away except the truth.  Until the other day.  And you wonder why I was upset.  You were just going to sit there and let me twist in the wind and wonder what the fuck was going on forever until I pushed the issue.  I am not going to fight that battle again.  I love you but it's just not worth it anymore.  For a brief time this summer it was there again.  That gave me a reason to try.  Without it there really is no reason to try.