And Finally, That's It.

I can take no more.  I have taken more than I think anyone should have.  3 years, 8 months after moving down here.  Almost 5 years since she started cheating on me.  4 years, 8 months after finding out about Cali.  Goddamn.

I have found that old saying about once a cheater, always a cheater to be true.  In my case.  I know that's not always true.  It depends on the circumstance.  It depends on the person.  I thought my person was better than that...but really, I have known she is not for some time.  Duplicitous, conniving,  manipulative,  selfish bitch.  I know.  I've been here before many times. But this is different.

Addendum:  I don't care who's for or against me on either side of the family.  And I know pretty much where everyone on my side of the family (and friends) fall.

There's too much to overcome.  Both from this recent event and overall.  She deflects and/or denies most of the things I always bring up.  I'm quite sure that's just human nature.  Whatever.  I have a fucking brain and I know when I'm being fucked over (as well as my son) and when I'm not.  I (we) have  done nothing BUT get fucked over from the time of our arrival down here (Me - late September 2013 and Toddles March 1, 2014. And enough is fucking enough.

There is nothing to discuss, compromise on, believe in, nothing.  She's done nothing but lie and cheat and deceive for the past 5 years.  Because that's what liars/cheaters/deceivers do.  Did I leave out manipulator?  How silly of me.

What would someone have me do?

• Listen repeatedly how everything is my fault, always finding a way to rationalize her behavior?
• Have her flip flop on me repeatedly?  Oh I love you, I want us to be together as a family, blah blah blah.  Now:  Move down there?  There are no good jobs with benefits.  Fuck that shit. - Shelly Troutt.  No shit?  There ain't good jobs down here?  

I do not have the desire to waste my time listing all the goddamn things starting with Cali.