What To Do?

As if Shelly has really given me any other choice, or that she even gives a shit enough to do something different (I know she doesn't).

I guess just about everyone in my situation wants to believe there's hope.  To see your spouse morph into someone totally uncaring and oblivious to how destructive and selfish their behavior has become.  Holding on to hope that they will wake up and smell the proverbial coffee before it's too late.  Of course we all do.  Those of us that have hung on, seized upon every conversation that could even remotely indicate the possibility of reconciliation.  And then you come across things like I uncovered.  And the same old blame/deflection/excuses/rationalizations rear their ugly head again.  You want to think at the very least, there's no way in hell they could have intentionally fucked with you all this time.  But in reality, yes.  That's exactly what she did.  Apparently, she just became craftier.  More deceptive.  Stealthier.  More duplicitous.  Liar 2.0.  You realize this when you confront them with the reality of the REAL TRUTH uncovered.  You start hearing the same ol' bullshit.  And the funny looks on their face:  No, I'm not moving down there.  I can't get a good job down there.  Really?  Making me feel like a complete fool for ever believing that she would.  Even when she said so last year.  But what's the purpose of trying to hold someone to something they said they would do?  Or wanted?  Remember, this is the same person that has been lying to you for 5 years.  Forced you to let her have her dick on the side in order to stay married.  That you weren't good enough until you __________ (fill in the blank, mine was "get a job".  Here's the thing.  When u do, it won't be a good enough job, or there will be another excuse.