The Definitive Statement

All along, I've been searching for signs of what Shelly really wants or what it would take, this means this and that means that.  Truisms.  What are the chances?  The reality of the situation vs my Fantasyland.  Too many times I zero in on the very, very few times she "acts" like she wants things to work out and always refer back to that time, regardless of what's happening in the present.  To be honest, I'm not even sure she knows.  With her drinking, who can tell?  The culmination of events that started in May with the "bracelet incident" and pretty much concluded with the "I don't want you stalking me" on July 6...with her going back to this "Get a job and we'll talk, otherwise, I'm going to do what I want" (basically...paraphrasing).

• Do I need employment?  Obviously the answer has always been a resounding yes.  Regardless of whether or not we were going to be together.
• When I look at the overall situation from Cali to now, with the exception of a very few times