I Don't Know What Matters

But a few things matter to me.  I do feel a lot of resentment towards Shelly right now.  And the way things are going, that's not likely to change anytime soon.  I don't necessarily mind lending her the 175 bucks (125 - phone, 20 - her half of the food on July 4, 30- her half of the game for Todd) but Shit.  I have no idea what causes her money problems.  And certainly, 4 weeks later I have no freakin clue why she couldn't have paid me back any.  Or at least told me when she would.  And I am certainly not asking about it again.  I just think that's pretty damn rude.  The minute I start trying to give her the benefit of the doubt, however, is the minute I found out she loaned Jolene 500.00 for some stupidass fucking reason or she did something for a friend or loaned Sandy money.  And yeah, I resent a lot of things about her.  I resent her hitching her wagon to Jolene.  She always felt boxed in at Bill's but she wouldn't save a fucking penny.