I'm not sure what goes through Shelly's mind but I am fairly positive that there won't be any viable attempts at her to do anything about this. After all, up til now she hasn't shown the desire/inclination/whatever to do so. I'd like to think this will eventually show her that I'm not backing down and possibly have her re-evaluate her attitude towards things. And change. That...is being overly optimistic, I'm afraid. And I really can't let myself think that way too much. Because I don't think it's going to happen. If there's anything I could do, I would do it. Anything I could say, I'd say it. But the bottom line is that at the very least she has created an atmosphere of mistrust to the point where I can't believe she is serious about us making it. It's still the same old thing. She pretty much blames me for everything and doesn't realize/understand/care what she has done. Much less accept that fact and try to change.
As mad as I have been and as little hope as I have for us salvaging anything, I am always willing to listen. At this point, I doubt there's much change of hearing anything other than the same old tired stuff and the same old rhetoric.
I haven't given up on job prospects, but I think I'm going to tone them down at least for awhile. I think I should concentrate on Malakoff, possibly Cayuga and/or other subbing which means I need to find out what to do and do it. I'd still like to have a get together @ Scooter's and see what he can do. If anything.
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