I'm just kind of scared...I could have just as well have continued the last post. I know me - sometimes I will keep things inside for awhile. Then, especially if I think I'm doing "good" (whatever that entails)...what's to say that one night I'm horny and what to have sex with my wife, but she's with someone else? I will need to keep my mouth shut and be a good boy. There are other things... but the thing I guess I need to understand is that there are some ground rules. I'm not sure where she wants to go with that. I think I might like to know if she's going somewhere where she's going to be doing something...I hope I don't react badly the first time it happens. I'm just scared. I know I have a temper, I'm scared. And I don't really want to admit to these fears (even though Shelly knows them well and has seen them, obviously)lest I prove unable to accomodate certain terms/blah blah blah
I think I just need to calm down. I think (I hope, at least) that she gives me every opportunity to take care of my business, so to speak and to become a number one priority. What happens, though, when I think I've been doing an excellent job but it just isn't good enough? That, perhaps is the wrong question. I need to be doing the best job possible, but understanding it's not a race. I don't know - it's all brand new.
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