This is something I've thought about at various times in the past. Why it suddenly "hits me" sometimes - I don't know. If I had to guess, I'd say it's probably a combination of the effects of Adderall and just my basic personality.
What I'm referring to, of course, is for "it" to suddenly dawn on me how long I've let something go on and on for a long period of time, seeming without being able to do anything about it. Right now it applies to our financial situation, and my inability to either do something about it within the confines of what we've generally had available over a certain period of time (read: the first 6 months of this year without a house payment (+1260/mo) plus things like the 2100.00 loan off my life insurance policy and numerous contest wins/Craigslist sales. I'm both intrigued and disgusted/frustrated about it at the same time. It is so hard to believe that we had all that $$ and yet at any given time we were still behind on stuff constantly and/or having to do something like offer Best Buy gift cards for sale on SweepSheet about a week before payday and then mailing them out once Shelly's paycheck got here. It's absolutely mind-boggling.
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