I started to say "more scared than I've ever been in my life". At this moment, yes. Hell, I've been here before. Very close. In fact, this is the 4 or 5th time I've either had my bags packed in the last 10 weeks or very close to it. Really intended to leave or was being forced to leave 2-3 of those times. I'm scared because this is my life. My wife and my son, my home...the things I'm trying to accomplish now (not very well, but still...) And with the things associated right now...
The sad thing is, I'm no better off than i was 8-10 weeks ago. There are various reasons for that. Are they excuses? Are they valid excuses? I don't know. I don't want to be guilty of making excuses - I never have wanted to do that. It really serves no purpose at all. But I am running out of time. The disability thing needs to be done asap. The leapforce thing needs to be done asap. Things need to come together now. It is my fervent hope and wish that they still can.
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