WTF Happened?

I really don't know what made me blow up the other day.  I know what started it all - the jacuzzi and everything associated with it.  I was extremely upset by that and everything associated with that encounter from the get go.  Strange, seeing as how I went and bought Champagne, made sure I cleaned out the car extra good/etc.  Then the outrageous hickeys started it.  And the shit I read that I shouldn't have read...which really wasn't that bad.  I don't understand it, personally.  Just another hole I had to start digging out of.