I think I'm pretty sure of the outcome. What needs to happen. What will happen. DIVORCE.
I will always wonder why I didn't mean enough to her to do the one thing I asked, the one thing that anyone would ask and/or assume when someone says you are "Working Things Out". And that is that you don't screw other people and lie about it. Especially when that was one of the things that led to your separation in the first place.
I've demanded. Begged. Written well thought out emails stating my position on the matter and why it made sense. And she never would. In 3 years, she never would. And even the one period of time she didn't (possibly)...due to previous lies and and an admission during this time of a recent lie during the time we were supposedly working things out...I couldn't believe her. I really doubt she was ever monogamous to me for very long, if at all.
But that's only part of the story. She has always demanded that I get a job before we could reconcile. I do understand that part and I agree...but she would never agree to stop screwing other people. There might have been times that she wasn't actually seeking and or screwing people...sometimes jus the mere fact that she refused to say she wouldn't was enough to set me off. And besides that...the other big thing is how little attention she's paid to either me or Todd while he's down here. Is it really good enough to see the two people who are supposed to be the most important in your life every 6 weeks or so? So picture this - I'm already upset that she doesn't spend as much time with us as I think she should, given the situation. Well, when you find out that she's screwing someone on the side and all she talks about is going to bars and flirting with men and going to concerts and has a "bestie" named Siobhan...naturally...you get the point. On top of this, she recently listed a second demand that I get our credit cleared (via BK) before we could be back together. All this while...she can fuck whomever she wants to. And she claims she isn't "seeing anyone" but, as I well know...Shelly does play on semantics (meaning a hookup does not equal seeing someone) or...she just flat out fucking lies. So - case closed.
And I shouldn't have to point this out to her. And I have and I have been dismissed. Too many times.
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