I Don't Know. I Just Don't Know...

3 weeks later, I still think about the things I discovered and what it all means.  Overall, I'd still say that I am in some kind of emotional fog/shock or something of the sort.  Sometimes I find myself saying out loud G.D.  How in the hell could she possibly do this to me?  Obviously, there is a huge discrepancy in the way I thought things were going and the way things were actually going.  I'm not sure how that goes back.  That's where things start getting a little hazy.  I know she was involved with him more than she would like to admit.  After Jerry's comment last November about Shelly telling Sandy "This is going nowhere"...I have no idea what she was thinking or why she was doing it.  But it tells me a lot about what was going on back then when I was trying to figure things out.  To me, it gives me plenty of insight as to why she would not give him up when I tried to force her to.