What Do I Really Think?

I think tonight, being Todd's birthday, there is not going to be much of an opportunity to talk, if any.  I'm thinking I might seize upon the opportunity as we are leaving to say something to her privately.  I don't think it will matter.  Whatever the case may be - whether she's still secretly screwing Cali or some other fuckup/still believes that I am to blame for her "losing everything" and not the simple fact that the way she has treated me over the last couple of years led to her downfall... and then it will just be case closed.  I've heard nothing to suggest anything differently.  So don't be surprised.


Update:  Friday, May 30, 2014 @ 12:44pm

I'm not quite sure how tonight will go.  I mean, WTF is there to do in Ennis after you eat at Pizza Hut?  I guess I will try to look up a local ice cream shop or something.  I would imagine there's not going to be  much to do...so total time might be 1.5-2 hours.  I'm sure it will be the generic "Hi, how r u?" and U look good.  Keep it simple.  It's Todd's birthday, and I don't want to be remembered for starting an argument on his birthday and/or doing something highly embarrassing like storming out of Pizza Hut  because of something I think and/or hear from Shelly...

This will be the 7th time in almost 8 months that I have seen Shelly.  To be more specific, this is the 7th time in about 5 months, since I didn't see them at all for almost the first 3 months.  Here's a list of the dates and facts about each visit:

• Friday, 12/20/13:  Arrive in Keller about noon to pick up Todd to spend some time with me down here over Christmas.  End up spending 6 or 7 hours, maybe longer...but only about 5 or so is with Shelly there because she "had to work".  Now I wonder if she was meeting Cali.
• Wednesday, 12/25/14:  Take Todd home after spending 5 days here.  Get there about noon, eat some roast and visit for 3 or 4 hours.
• Tuesday, 1/14/14:  I have a Dr's appt to get Addies for the first time in over 3.5 months, so I go up for a few hours to visit before I have to leave because I have to pick Mom up from work.  Spent roughly about 2 hours, Shelly was on the phones and Todd was asleep.
• Friday, 2/21/14:  I thought we had agreed that I was picking up Todd that weekend to bring him down here, but apparently neither Shelly nor Todd was aware of that until I get up there.  Shelly and I go to Bronson Rock and have a great time.  Go home Saturday evening late.  Only 4-5 hours actually spent with Shelly due to her working all day Saturday.
• Saturday, 3/1/14:  Gary and I go up there to pick up Todd to bring him down here.  Shelly's working...don't hang around the house very long.  Perhaps spent about 30-45 minutes with Shelly @ the paint studio on the way out of town.  Later I found out she was meeting Cali later that night - wonder if he went to Billy Bob's with them or they just fucked?
• Friday, 4/4/14:  Todd and I go up to visit Shelly that evening.  Go to Zio's and Best Buy to get his "gaming keyboard".  Again don't really spend that much time with Shelly since she works most of the day Saturday.
• Tonight.  ???