What a crazy, fucked up day and what for awhile has been a crazy, fucked up life. I can't help but think about things sometimes. I hate some of the rages I have these days. Sometimes you can almost predict them coming - even though I know what the end result will be ( a fight that I usually lose/back down from). And these days, one of the first things that comes to mind is that any fight, especially the escalated ones - could lead to divorce. The pattern usually is that I'm getting slowly pissed about something as it happens or keeps happening over a period of time. I try to be a good boy for as long as I can but then something comes along that is the proverbial "straw that broke the camel's back" and then that's all she wrote. And I tell you what - as much as I have going on these days, I sure as heck don't want anything else bugging me/distracting me.
Along those lines, I think about a few things. One that always comes to mind is perspective. Thinking of times when it might have been a little tough making it til payday or something like that. Minor in comparison to today's travails. At the time, however, it seemed big and it was.
All of this stuff is so crazy.
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