Sometimes, I don't know

Three weeks in to this medicine cycle, and once again I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.  Let's be clear about one thing.  Overall, I feel most of the time like  I don't have a chance at most things.  Not a good chance, at least.  We have non-legal cars (which obviously already led to my fucking ticket - but that's just one of many things.  I don't know what the fuck to do about a lot of things.  Our fucking credit blows - so that leaves out car financing.  Of course, if I had a job we could go to a tote the note place, but whatever.  I get overwhelmed by finances, mostly because of two very important things:  One - I usually count heavily on including Michelle's paint place income, but at least half of the time I don't see a dime of that.  Two - unplanned things - which a lot of it should be included in the budget by now and/or resolved - such as the black hole that's known as our food budget.  Then there's stuff like energy drinks/coffee drinks and stuff Michelle spends that I don't know what the fuck is going on.  First things first like the house/cars/health/job.