So, What Gives?

I don't know.  Perhaps I'm out of line.  Sometimes I can get so fucking mad that everything I think from that point on just pisses me off even more.  I also think that Michelle thinks that since she is the only one working, somehow she is afforded "Godlike Status"/I Can Do No Wrong So You Just Shut The Fuck Up.

So - what started all this?  I guess it all goes back to Monday evening.  The day had gone well - at least no incidents.  We seemed to be getting along well.  Then she got drunk and started getting on to me about not having a job and causing all the problems again.  Then she instituted the "30 days" policy.  The next day I heard nothing from her all day long, which is very unusual.  That kind of pissed me off.  I probably was out of line to be a smartass when asking where she was.  I figured she was either stopping off to paint for a few hours or teach, but who knows these days?  Most of the time she's kind enough to text a quick reminder.  But not this day.  Without really knowing where she was, I just got a little more infuriated about all the times with the "hot tub" shit and OK Corral during the week and Siobhan constantly bombarding her to go out with her.  I'm fucking sick of it.  Perhaps I should hold my tongue.  All it does is cause fights or upset me in some way, shape, form or fashion.  Not to mention that 99% of the time all I do is back down anyway - with regret in ever having caused a scene in the first place.  But I'm also sick and fucking tired of Siobhan's posts - "this is us" bullshit.  I'm fucking sick of it.


Update:  7/18/2013 @ 1:24 am

On the other hand, what do I accomplish by getting pissed off?

Let me be clear on this point:  I do get sick and tired of her being gone all the time.  And with the exception of perhaps the last few days, it has been a lot.  I'm also sick of Siobhan begging her to go out.  And if she thinks that shit is going to stand if/when I get a job and she no longer has that to hold over my head, she's sadly mistaken.

But who am I really kidding?  I think I have some valid points.  And I have no goddamn clue as to why I wasn't even informed about the movie nor was I asked to go.  And for her to just fucking take off like that without giving a shit about whether or not we can afford it really pisses me off and I'm quite sure it cost somewhere in the neighborhood of 40 bucks.  So there ya go.