Shit

Well, I guess the post title says it all.  You know, there are many things NOT to like about just about any time in particular over the past year.  Of course, I'm really talking in particular about the past couple of months.  Perhaps the last 3-4 in particular.  I just keep sitting here squirming without being able to get much accomplished.  Remember when I could at least clean the house?  Yeah.  With so many negative things coming down at once, I shouldn't be surprised.  And I'm not, really.  I mean yes - certainly it has been my intent to do more.  Never have I mentally given up - but I find myself so totally overwhelmed - scared shitless on so many fronts.  And I'm supposed to be surprised?  Why? 

I think it was within about a two week time period.  Towards the end of school, when I found out the truck wasn't going to pass, got the ticket...etc.  And yet, as overwhelming as that all is - imagine my surprise when looking at expenses vs income this month.  The main thing was we probably had about 500 bucks more than usual (with Shelly's holiday pay and the soccer tickets sold).  And yet we sit here struggling, again.  We could have done a lot with that.