Which brings up another point I want to make. This last week, if not the last two weeks that I've been on the medicine have been some of the most disappointing that I've ever had. Perhaps it's just my perspective because they are the latest in a long series of a disappointments. I've always expected much more of myself and even moreso since our "reconciliation". And lately I have not provided it. I was hoping despite the onslaught of things that needed to get done, I could persevere. I think I can, but I didn't these last two weeks. What's more, it just seemed like I was in a daze most of the time and I don't understand it. Yes, there are a lot of challenges. But some things simply HAVE to get done and I HAVE to understand that to move forward. NOT doing them only serves to make me feel worse and I REALLY don't need that right now at all. Not by any stretch of the imagination. I could just sit here all day and be pissed off about it and depressed, but that serves nothing. So here's the list:
- The car. It ain't happening right now, apparently. Not without a cosigner, and do you REALLY think Mom is up to that? I don't. We'll either need more money down or something. I will try to research and see what can be done - but see next point for a possible solution.
- Hopefully we can qualify for this aircheck texas replacement plan before they run out of funds. It sickens me that we are going to have to wait to do this...and even then it might be tough.
- The house. I have no freakin' clue. It will probably take a miracle.
- Sweeps. I have to do this, no questions asked whatsoever.
- Disability - probably going to take a hospital stay and I dread that.
- Blood pressure/STD. I'm going to have to go to JPS. Look over the stuff they gave me about JPS connect and it's going to have to be done. The sooner, the better.
- Short term finances. Shelly has to get paid. Lord have mercy, I hope it's by tomorrow or we are FUCKED.
- Todd's teeth - see JPS connect line.
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