Scattershooting/Everything

Well, we made it back from the trip about 11pm or so finally.  According to Google Maps, it's about a 5 hour trip.  Considering we had at least 45 minutes in stops...let's see...it took us a little over 7 hours or a little over 6 without the stops.  Houston traffic sucked.  I'm still too afraid to look and see what our finances look like, but I will have to soon.

Overall, that's not the kind of trip I like to take.  10 hours+ driving (minimum) in two days.  And we couldn't afford it.  But, I know Shelly wanted Toddles to have some fun and so did she.  However, it just looks bad on me to suggest that we can't afford it.  But when we get back and...

Yes, I'm the cause of us not being able to afford it.  I'm the cause of us not being able to afford a lot of things/our credit being screwed up...fucked up finances/etc.  I've realized that for a long time.  I don't know why I could never draw a line in the sand and overcome whatever it was that kept me from "achieving" sooner...but it's one of those things that I finally woke up to last September.  However, what has happened since then is almost a microcosm of what had been going on over the last 9 years.  What have I learned or solved?  Nothing, apparently.

***Update 3/16/13@ 4:46 am***

 Properly,  I suppose this could go under another post.  But the post title DOES say scattershooting/everything...

I guess I understand what Shelly means about sex.  I take that back.  I've pretty much always understood what she meant.  However, understanding it and "liking" it or not having it bother me are two different tings.  And when we discussed it, I had every intent of doing everything within my power to "win her back".  I still do.  I sure have made it much harder.