Things I Hate

• Sticky/unresponsive keyboards
• installers that don't install
• uninstallers that don't uninstall
• Me, when I don't get shit done (is that all the time?)
• People who don't know wtf they are talking about (could be me sometimes)

 Actually, it's like I said before.  I do KNOW why it bothers me, and bothers me more now than it did a few months ago.  At the risk of sounding like a broken record, lots of things have changed.  I've fucked up and all of it's here in the open.  Whatever leg I may have had to stand on before has just about been kicked out from under me - and that's all my fault.  There are some things I did not know.  There are other things I assumed once the "C-man" thing was over with in November and things started changing quite a bit with VC=>threesomes/etc.  I think she wanted that stuff to work, but we were having problems finding people she was attracted to.  There's one thing that's for sure.  I'm at a tremendous disadvantage here.  Both in terms of finding a "side piece" (more likely and occasional fling) and/or partners at VC; and Shelly herself.  Even all of that can be directly traced back to me.  I've never been good at it - and you still have to be "good at it" even drunk at a swinger's club.  Not to mention overcoming the weight/body issues (Obviously I have come a long way, but still...).  The biggest issue is providing for my family.  Not only have I NOT done that, I've crapped on things and made them a lot worse at a time where I/we could ill afford to have them get worse.  So, I have basically taken 1 step forward and quite a few steps back.