But I guess I somehow should have expected it. I already hated the way it's been over the summer. Absolutely fucking despised it. And that was without having the medicine to be able to have a rational thought process in my brain longer than 10 seconds.
I absolutely, positively will never tolerate this "I can do whatever I want" policy anymore. If that's the way she wants it, then we can just get divorced. Period. I am sick of that goddamn fucking bullshit and if that's the way it's going to be, then I am deeply saddened and hurt but...it's not worth it anymore.
On top of that, I think the clincher is something else I haven't thought about much. The big picture - which would involve her moving down here...when exactly would that happen? According to her she needs to "figure out what she wants" <<<===more extreme bullshit===>so I guess in the "meantime" she would be able to "do whatever she wants"...and string this shit out forever. Gary was right. SHE is the only one that benefits from this situation. No wonder she wants to keep it that way.
I can't help but think that somehow, someway, no matter what I do, I'm going to get fucked over in the end. And she's just stringing me along because I've got Todd and she doesn't want to be alone. I guess. I don't know.
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