Some Thoughts - Monday, July 6, 2015:

Well, I just got home from a 4 day trip to see Todd & Shelly.  It wasn't the best of trips, but...who knows.  For the first time in 3 months I have medicine.  I sure as hell wish it hadn't taken this long...but who knows.  With Cheryl Tiblets being gone (unbeknownst to me) for an undetermined period...it was probably never going to happen the way it was supposed to as she laid it out 3 months ago anyway.  And considering the way it did turn out, I guess I should consider myself lucky that I got it as soon as I did.  25 pounds later...well, we'll see.  I've got a lot to do and there are no more excuses that can be made.  Period.

I do have a few suggestions:

• Medicine - changes need to be made/other things tried.  What I've done, I've been doing for years.  And the outcome has been the same.  I don't get things done because I ended up analyzing all possibilities over and over again to the point where I just don't get anything done.  I have been better about it since I've been here - for various reasons.  Mostly probably because I can't smoke inside - so I don't take as many pills - but still.  Suggestions - start of with 1/2 pill in the morning and take doses of 1/4 pill every 3-4 hours.  Not only does this give me a total savings over the day, but it gives me a chance to see if 1/4 pill gives me idea to carry on a rational thought process in my mind without the endless analyzing.  WTF?  Something needs to change.
• Shelly.  Play it cool.  No outbursts - coupled with thoughtful if not loving texts/cards periodically.  Try not to think...about things.  Hopefully...she won't give me a reason to.  BUT...that is very hard - if she gets quiet or starts acting funky.  AND get a job - and get going on imacros/sweeps.  I've got to do this - for myself at the very least.  I need an identity.  My self respect.  Whatever you wish to call it.  Not to mention $$.
• Upgrade my runs and eating plan and do the ab challenge - and weights when possible.
• I need to check out with Dr Henegar (at least in the beginning/etc) if not here- someone to do relines and get prices on getting the lowers pulled  and lower dentures.  Perhaps even "paying it out" on the HSA card
• Reach out to friends - Robert/Tommy/Scooter - as well as ATO buddies.  See what happens.  Also Tim Perry?