Yeah. Like she's going to be home early from this event. I could be wrong, but Siobhan does not go to things like this just to dance. I hear this "yeah, I could be home early...but what I'll probably see is her dragging in about 7 am. I wonder how that's going to make me feel? I hope I'm wrong. I have a feeling about this one.
Again, I don't know if she is honestly sort of non-plussed by this or if she's just trying to really play it down - like she would possibly do if something does happen tonight. I've kind of had my suspicions that is what's been going on the past couple of weeks - especially since that little texting incident last week. I'm just not up for this.
Somewhere along those lines, I just have to wonder what the hell is going on. It seems to be rather quiet. And with her Gym action, etc etc - every night - we don't have much of a chance to speak, much less do anything else. I'd like to make one thing perfectly clear. Yeah, her fucking someone else after almost obviously going out of her way to be constantly gone so we couldn't "do" anything would be a little bit much. At this point, I don't know for sure that it's a conscious thing that she is doing - but I kind of take it that a message is probably being sent, one way or the other. Whether she's doing it on purpose or just doing it - the result is the same.
Update: 5/25/2013@midnight
Perhaps clarifying a few things - maybe not. I really don't like the way my mindset is headed. This is really not where I want to be. I figured it would be like this, however. It's kinda like back in March? - the "second" weekend in a row I agreed to let her see Cali. It's a similar type buildup, between a little anger and sadness and perhaps disbelief or whatever - and yet, how can I be surprised if she comes dragging in about 6 or 7 am? I won't have any doubts about what went on. And I'm supposed to be good with that?
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