I Don't Know What To Do

...and yet, I really kinda know what needs to be done.  Perhaps it's just a matter of how to go about it.  All I know is most of the time I'm confused, think there seems to be a possible answer - but then something pops up when re-reading stuff and I see something that obviously is going to be a problem moving forward.  All I know is the stress is just dragging me down and making me want to (and actually do) less.  That is EXACTLY what I DON'T need to be doing, since we are running out of time.  Not to mention it just makes me feel worse and I'm sure Shelly's opinion of me has not gone up.

A summary of what needs to be done:

• I think, before anything else, I probably need to contact (call) our new specialist.  If I'm no longer authorized to talk, we'll have to rectify that.  If I am, I need to find out what type of MODS we are being considered for.  I also need to explain that the my (our) real intent was to submit new information.  Regardless, I need to know what types(s) we are being considered for so I can structure our information in the proper format.  Possibly need to find out about the HOA stuff, although I fgure they should know about it but if not then I hate to inform them...
• Using this information, (and possibly - hopefully having found out what the requirement is to have someone else from the household contributing information.  I'm pretty sure this is NOT going to work, since when it DID work (and it wasn't supposed to, even then) - it was documented with deposits in our bank account.  Regardless, at least we would know how to move forward.
• Research if there is a possible way to be able to show mom's contribution as income on my part
• Upload this stuff to NACA.  ASAP - because it just needs to be done asap.  If they can't do something, we will have to focus on Chapter 13
• Red Rock Financial - as much as I hate to hear the "bad news", I need to know it.
• JPS Connect.  Please just do it.
• I really hope Shelly does not pull any of this "going out with the girls" type bullshit again soon.  I do not want to fight/be upset by all this/but it's bullshit that she spends 7-10 working out every goddamn night and by the time she gets home (usually after 10, takes a bath - well.  You can kiss any action on our part goodbye.  But, I guess that's the point I miss a lot of the time - because I don't like its implication - if she wanted to spend time with me and/or fuck me, she would find the time.  She does with everyone else.  Regardless of anything else, I find that to be troublesome and something that I'm not going to be happy with/allow

Update:  5/14/2013 @ 2:17 pm

Well - I'm "updating" but I don't really see the purpose.  I guess I was just going to reiterate a lot of what I said earlier - since I haven't done anything that I mentioned above.  I made the bright move of wanting to upgrade to the newest Ubuntu.  Problem is, to upgrade, you have to be on the latest PREVIOUS version.  I was one behind, so I had to spend about 45 minutes upgrading so I could upgrade.  All this for an OS that I get so frustrated with I just usually jump back into Windows within an hour or less.