Closer & Closer

Next to last night @ 3132 Spotted Owl Dr forever.  Really getting tough the closer it gets and the emptier the house gets.  God.  I wonder what I'll be doing one week from tonight.  Or Saturday night.  The first night of the rest of my life without them.  That's a hard concept to swallow.  Still.  And it draws ever so near.  I think it's been beckoning for the last year.  I've got to keep it together.  Somehow.  And that's all I can think about.  Not getting a job.  Not doing something great.  Just...surviving, for now.