If It Weren't For My High Blood Pressure

I'd love to embrace anger and hate as a means of getting through the day.  Perhaps for a little while.  But I don't want to live in that world.  Not any longer.  Yeah, it's a big fucking deal.  Huge.  Extremely huge.  Life transforming.   I guess it will turn out that the things that I kept hearing as rationales for behavior (keeping Todd around) will turn out to be true (for his 950.00).  Even as I continue to hear about how worthless I was/am as a husband.  I'm sure that's the only reason for this charade lately.  It was just easier for her to put herself on ice so as not to piss me off for a long as it took for her to get settled.  She had a built-in babysitter for Todd when working nights and also a taxi driver for him to and from school.  Not to mention the extra labor to help out when moving.