But then again, sometimes I do. I'm quite sure that the blowup this morning had a lot to do with the buildup overnight. I'm scared, sad, nervous, jealous - etc. I don't tend to understand a lot sometimes. Sometimes I put what I think are 2 and 2 together and they come up with 5.
To put it another way, yes. I'm tired of hearing about Cali. Most men wouldn't but up with it, I think. I've made my mistakes and I sold out to keep my marriage alive and try to repair it. I don't know if it will work but I'm still trying. I realize I've made many mistakes over the years. I don't know why for a lot of them - but I regret them and all I can do is strive to overcome them. In this agreement, which in the beginning had a lot to do with Cali himself, it was every two weeks. If asked, I usually agree to in between times. If I give - why can't I get? I let her see him sooner than that sometimes, yet when I have a question or problem with a given situation in that "relationship" I just get flat out told "that's the way it is, that's the way it's gonna be".
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