Much like the times where I waste all day ending up doing nothing when I have so many important things to do, I hate the wasted nights just as much. I've got so much shit going on that HAS to and NEEDS to be done...and yet another day passes by with nothing accomplished/resolved on any of them. I just despise that.
Another thing I don't like (and I've said this a lot lately - is the constant goddamn texting. That wasn't supposed to be a part of the deal. I don't like it, I don't like her sharing information about us with him. We've been over this time and time again.
I realize there are things going on in our life that have caused problems between us, but it just makes me insanely jealous to think of her just going totally fucking crazy with him (especially) but others as well...and then just ho-hum with me. And I get so damn frustrated because of all the things happening - they might have been caused by me in some way, especially the house, which is the biggie - but some of it - like the car - was just out of my control.
I mean, unless I press the issue - I never know wtf is going on. I am almost tempted to do the unthinkable - KL - but is that something I really want to do right now? I can almost guarantee I will be upset by something on there. And if I bring it up, the very fact that I did it will cause big trouble. And even if it's something generic. I just have to admit that I'm suspicious. Ordinarily, well - just going with what she said originally - that she doesn't want him blah blah blah...but, then again - she was so upset when he was "gone".
That part above is going to be continued at some later time.
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