...like this, where I wonder why she is the way she is - and is there any real hope for us? I don't know. You wouldn't think there was a problem most times...she does a remarkable job of maintaining affection for me...and making me feel good, and generally just being supportive. I don't think she's lying or misrepresenting anything...at least up til now.
If anything DOES happen (that I'm not supposed to know about)...especially anytime soon. Resist the urge to be mad. I know how I take things. I know how it bothers me now, even though one of the reasons it does is because I haven't gotten anywhere yet - and believe me, it will be awhile, even after I am working...that we/I can do much.
Please keep it cool, and if u ever want to have some kind of discussion, never do it by im or email or text again, no matter how bad it hurts. I know I do have options if anything does happen. They are not very good right now, but there are options. Please make the most of what you have now.
Update:
I say all this...and you can tell from the posts, I'm still all over the place. And this despite the fact that I've really had nothing much to bitch about. There have been a few things...but when it was all said and done...I moved on and wished that I hadn't said anything. I don't know what I'll do if there's one of those situations where I keep thinking something's wrong (and maybe there is) and she won't talk about it - but that hasn't happened yet. The constant contact - yeah, I guess I get it. And I have to trust her that whatever she says is true. Some days it just fluctuates wildly.
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