I Tell You What...

Perhaps I have given the wrong impression.  I have changed my mind about things as time has gone by.  Some of them for the better (really, for both of us)...now, I saw "some"...really, I've taken nothing away.  I've given.  What used to be every two weeks has morphed into 10 days...now one week.  It tells me a couple of things.  One, she likes it.  Who can blame her?  I don't think I can, even from my perspective.  I don't know because I haven't experienced it.  However, I think one thing remains crystal clear.  Again, this is from my perspective as the one who is trying to prove himself...so obviously, things are different for me.  I'm not saying I won't like sex with someone else.  And since I haven't had sex with anyone but Shelly not only in the 20 years we've been together, but actually since Terrie in 1988.  So that's 24 years....I'm quite sure it will be an experience.  Obviously, since it hasn't happened yet, all I can do is speculate.  But my position is I don't want someone on the side...I want a little spice...but I just want to regain what we have lost and make it better...I don't want to replace it.