Today Was A Good Day

It was great.  In some ways I take that with a grain of salt.  I went to bed last night not very happy...and really perhaps for no reason.  That's the way it's been and today marks 5 weeks.  As I have probably stated many times...it just goes to show the level of insecurity I feel.  Perhaps not anything specific, mind you...yet it still varies from day to day and a lot of times within the day.  I could probably sit here all day and list various things...mostly things I have talked about over and over again, ad nauseum.  I guess mostly it boils down to this:  I knew things were bad, and had been for awhile.  I know for a fact I didn't realize until Shelly and Todd came back from Florida and we started getting along better and communicating more.  Even with all its ups and downs...in most ways, it's still better.  I'm still having to fight the same battles I fought before...financial pressures...even more pressures about jobs and such...but it's better.  On the other hand...with all the new "stuff"...there are very specific worries I have about my ability to keep her...even if I am going above and beyond.  Who knows?