There is a lot of crazy shit that has gone on from both sides. No doubt about it. Perhaps some day I will look at this and wonder why I ever wrote it. Well, it's not because I didn't care. I sure wish none of this would have happened, though. It just irritates the fucking shit out of me that she let that Bozo come back in to OUR lives. I realize she wasn't really perhaps choosing him over me - she was being a stubborn ass when faced with someone yelling at her over something she didn't think should matter.
In the end, I'm the one that loses. I feel like Todd loses out as well - but that's a matter of opinion. I feel like the decision has already been cast in stone and there's no way in hell it could ever, ever be changed. Period. I think she has made some very selfish choices. Perhaps the real reason I will be gone for good is the house. I know that's a big deal. Just by default. And bottom line - she just doesn't care enough for it to make a difference, be it 2 weeks away or 2 months. Period. So I will be tasked with beginning a new life with getting/having some kind of job for the first time in 9 years. Living where? I have no idea. Really, no clue. Whereever it is - it's without them. period.
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