Some Things About Reconciliation Possibilities

Some simple facts and some thoughts about possible reconciliation:

• Probably no doubt that some time apart would do us some good.  Some things that confuse me are the amount of time involved and her insistence about doing it the way she is going about it - doing what she wants - especially knowing the way she is.  I will be a basket case.  Regardless of where I am - but especially if I have to spend any amount of time at Mom's/East Texas/whatever.  Both in terms of just being apart but also in terms of knowing, at least at this point - that until I have a job the possibilities aren't very good.  At least I'm showing something when having a job.  But the thought of pursuing a job - at any point- almost kill me - but the thought of doing it alone with nothing more of  a "possibility" of getting back together?  I can just imagine.
• This goes along with the above - the way she wants to go about it.