Obviously

We deserve what we get for being stupid enough for one of the other of us not to give in enough to at least file the bankruptcy.  How stupid is that?  Aside from Todd's adjustments - which are hard enough for a child, make no mistake - I'm the one that stands to lose the most (IMHO).  I have no place to live and no job, making me UNABLE to get a place to live.  At best, I HAVE to go live at my Mother's (I love ya mom, but...especially considering recent history) and possibly deal with the lectures of getting back together with Shelly.  Who knows - I might not have that option, considering the "impasse" we are experiencing currently.  And like I say - how stupid am I anyway?  Not knocking Mom - but can you imagine -no internet -and even possibly at Jim's...I mean, c'mon.  I may have thought I was right.  I may have had something I thought was worth standing up for. (true)  But I also thought I would get her to back down to save our house.  And she wouldn't do it.  But I wouldn't either.  Did I seriously think about the consequences?  (Not specificially when I was fighting about it).

Soooo...

• I have to do something very quickly.  Note that even overcoming all fears, filling out an Amazon app and somehow getting hired...leaves a lot of unanswered questions.  Not as many...but still.