Scattershooting While Realizing...

• I won't be taking Todd to school in the mornings, with us having our morning chats about waiting for him to get into the truck before starting it because of the squeal
• Even if I somehow get a job and somehow a place to stay...I won't even be seeing him on the same regular basis as before.  Shelly either - for that matter.
• The dogs.  I have no idea-whether I stay up here or whatever.
• The matter of Shelly (us).  That's a biggie.  Somehow I think we'll overcome this latest crap.  I can certainly see with a lot of stress from all this crap/that time of the month/etc.  However, the larger picture still remains.  Do I even trust her?
• Just about anything and everything that I/we/all of us have become accustomed to as some kind of routine/reality - will be gone for good within a matter of 3-5 days.  All of this - we've lived here 5 years.  This was not only our house, it was our home.  And all of this because we were too stubborn to give in.
• In a matter of days, I went from being a guy who just THOUGHT he had problems (did, as a matter of fact) to...being homeless.  Not only being homeless, but not being able to be with my family - meaning being homeless separately.  With no legal vehicle, etc.
• This is just so overwhelming.  Completely unnecessary and obviously totally unexpected.  I could just kick myself for not having enough sense to understand the ramifications of...this.

Update:  Friday, 8/9/2013 @ 2:54am

I've said it many times over the past few days and I'm sure I'll think it even more than write it...this is just absolutely, fantastically horrible.  Having our house sold?  Knowing we couldn't afford, much less have the credit nor time to get a place for ourselves?  I think back Sunday night when the first of the arguments happened...then Monday morning over and over again while we still had a chance.  I just don't know how we'll make it through this as a couple.

Well, I tell you what.  I don't think I have EVER been in a situation where my back was against the wall this bad, so to speak.  So much riding on it.